Saturday, July 20, 2013

Random Post

Ahhh this time maybe I will use Indonesian language more

Gila....hari ini....my mood wasn't good at all all day long!!!
Besok bakal tes simulasi beasiswa dan sumpah udah seharian belajar, semingguan malah!! seengaknya tiap hari belajar 2 jam tapi tetep aja ya allah......sumpah takut banget...masalahnya masa kata ko nya, hasilnya bakal digabung sama anak yang di Jakarta Barat trus nanti bakal diurutin. Ahh gila aja....kalo nanti dapet urutan yang paling jelek gimana??terendah gimana?? ahhhh ya allah....Sebenernya malahan mau banget tes besok lancar. Kan bisa buat gambaran, kalo misalnya besok bisa lancar kan, insyaAllah pas tes utamanya bisa bener-bener lancar. Abisan kan dari jaman rekplik juga pasti soal-soal try out gitu-gitu pasti lebih susah dari pada actual test nya. Ya Allah....Ya Allah....

Ahhhhh padahal cuman 6 materi ya Allah yang baru dipelajarin, partial fraction, binomial expansion, differentiation, integral, sama first order differentiation. Ya Allah!!!! ahhhhh seharusnya mulai belajarnya dari 2 minggu yang lalu ini ahhhh gilaaaaaaaaaa moron moron moron!!!!!!! Ya Allah..... pengen belajar lagi tapi udah mumet mana ada tugas b.indo lagi...b.indo senin lagi...besok pergi pagi pulang malem. ahhhh fix fixxx!!!

Ya Allah why could I feeling like this?...like lonely, and not having any spirit to live the day, Ya Allah..ahhhhhh kangen smp Ya Allah!! Sumpah demi apapun kangen Ciba, kangen Olda, kangen Iti, kangen Alda, kangen Sarhum, kangen Ade -_-, kangen Bombak juga malah, kangen beo juga malah gilanya!! kangen pak bedul, kangen pak tukimin, kangen pak duhh siapa sih tuh guru agama islam lupa.... pak zainal, ya Allah... walaupun di kantin yang dijual cuman mie indomie doang dari ujung ke ujung, tetep aja ternyata ngangenin juga. Kangen sholat di mushollanya. Ya allah...kangen banget masa-masa smp yang dikelilingin sama temen-temen yang sepaham (di sma gak ada yang gila kpopers T_T, ada sih...tapi gak sepaham). Trus kangen gila-gilaan sama Olda, Ciba, Alda, Audi, Iti, nari-nari gak jelas, mulai dari Gee sampe Lucifer (gila kan broo nge-dance Lucifer kitaa).  Trus...jujur.....sumpah....I am more happy when I'm surrounded by bunch of crazy and fool people than people I know they're crazy too, crazy too the max, but prefer to talking about boys and worst love... gosh..... I'm not kinda person who's interested to talk about those stuff yet. I prefer talking about nonsense stuff and idol and nonsense stuff and idol and dreams...

It doesn't mean I don't love my high school friends, I love my high school friends too damn much. I found more great friends in high school, Afi, Atika, Dwi, Puput, Deta, Vabbya. I love them all wholeheartedly. But I'm still missing my old friends my old life even my old me. Me when just school and idol, things that keep spinning on my brain, no space for boys. But now, everywhere I go, talking about boy here and there and there and there and there and there (ponting around). And sometimes when slowly but sure all of my friends finally have a boyfriend, it makes me...feel like a total jones for the first time. and I don't want to feel like that!!! I want to pursue my dreams first!!! NO BOYS ALLOWED!! soo that's why..... I so damn crazy miss my old friends, doing our crazy stuff and friends who will understand about my obsession toward Park Chanyeol...walaupun mereka gak suka juga sama Park Chanyeol, malahan ngatain mulu (nyindir someone out there *smirk*), but at least she understand me. Because now, everytime when I talk about Chanyeol, almost everyone will give me "the look". sigh....sigh...sigh.....long sigh.....

Ahhhhh kangen Olda Siva banget parah.....

Ya Allah...please...let our friendship, my friendship with Olda and Siva will last forever. And let my dream do come true (dapet beasiswa S1 full di NTU jurusan antara tekling sama teksi) Aamiinn Ya Allah...Me go to NTU, Olda goes to Fkunpad, Ciba...I haven't know what is her dream yet...next time when I chat her I'll ask her for sure.


look look!I visited NTU on my last holiday!!

Well...I think I have to go now...because I'm sleepy and still have some thing to do (homework) so bye readers :*

X.O.X.O
D.L.

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